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My Kingdom for a job

So, over a month ago on the 31st October, I started a job in the transport office of a company that I won’t name, though technically I actually work for the recruitment agency Blue Arrow. Anyway, the first two days, I was sat in the admin office observing the employees doing their jobs, particularly observing how the in-house system worked. Now, this wasn’t the office I would be working in,and while I did get a tiny bit of practice in, it was mainly observing. I have worked in an office before, but I think I personally work better if I get practice in early on.

Finally, after two boring days of observing, I was in the office I was supposed to be! Except… it was freezing cold and it was mainly observing, again. I did a fair bit more practice, though, trying to get to grips with what I was supposed to do with such a limited ability to pick it up. I asked questions when I wondered why the guy who was training me did x, I noted down what I was supposed to do, but in the end it wasn’t enough. After the fourth day, I went home and got a phone call later, from Blue Arrow, to say the company didn’t need me in the next day.

I thought, okay, a day to refresh myself. Honestly, I had been exhausted getting up at 6am and going to bed before 10pm, because it took me ages to fall asleep and it was made worse by my brother who is very loud when he’s playing on his xbox and I find it difficult to sleep with even small noises like ticking clocks, imagine how it is when you have an angry teenager shouting and crashing things around next door?

I found out the next day that the company didn’t think I was picking it up fast enough, so, I was out of a job. I’m still with Blue Arrow, but there has been nothing for me so far, though I did get a call on the 11th December to see if I could drive. I can’t, so that job near Manchester airport is a little too far away for me.

While I find myself much less tired now and a little thankful that I don’t need to take two buses there and two buses back from the place, being out for about twelve hours a day only to come home, have a couple of hours before bed, rinse and repeat, I am left without a job and feeling like a failure.

This isn’t the first failed job I’ve had; a few years ago before I got a job at Next in 2012, I got a call from an agency to work at an admin company to start the next day and I was there for about three hours, told to go on my lunch and came back, only to get a call from the agency to say that I’m not right for the part. I wasn’t too bothered at the time, because when I was trying to learn what I was supposed to do, it was a bit too mathematical, but it was the fact that I was sent on my lunch, therefore wasting my time and wasn’t told by the company themselves. That made me a little annoyed (later, for at first I took it well at first).

I still don’t know what to do, I don’t know what my dream job is and I fear that I’m going to be stuck in a job I hate when I do finally find a job. I’m starting to think that admin may not be my thing, but what is? I know I like to write and I am looking for writing jobs, which hopefully I will get. I have an idea already thanks to a friend of mine, but whether it will be enough, I don’t know. I think I’d like to work in a library, but those jobs are difficult to find.

I just have to keep telling myself not to give up.

Have you had any bad or plain annoying job experiences? Feel free to share them!

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