For many people, accepting their reflection can be a hard process to begin. For me, I just caught a glance of myself and feel I don’t really know who I am anymore. I feel better in myself, but I don’t feel 100% now I am post mental breakdown. It’s not even to do with the way I look, I just don’t recognise myself. I feel I’m a different person from who everyone else sees. Inside I feel timid and unstable but people see a strong and happy person. Its not that I want to look depressed, but my inside person could shine through to the outside a little more, so that I can at least reconise myself.
For me, accepting myself is part of me getting better but has only really crossed my mind this morning. I’m not a 100% happy with the way I look, but I don’t wish to change myself. I have always been a bigger person than the people around me, but I don’t lead an unhealthy lifestyle so most of it is due to my health and medication. I’m not making excuses, I should exercise more, but having mood swings and depression is not always the best motivation tool. I’m not sure if I even like my personality anymore, being so fragile sometimes and lashing out at friends and family makes me dislike myself.
I suppose that being on the road to recovery is all about finding yourself again and it’s not easy. I’m not too sure how to go about finding myself but I will figure it out. I think everyone needs to accept their inner-self before even confronting the reflection.